My mom and grandma left and Penny came to help out. I'm so grateful for all the help. Seriously, having two infants and a three year old is so much harder than I ever thought it would be. The few times I have been left alone with them, I have nearly lost my mind. It is so overwhelming to have three kids needing your attention that very second! It is so hard to not be short and lose my cool with Daci when she is knocking things over and climbing all over me. I know she is just trying to help and I don't want her to see my frustration, but when I have babies screaming and her all over me I can't barely contain my anxiety! I am absolutely terrified that I won't be the mother that I want to be when it is just me and the three hoodlums all day long. I want to be patient and loving and calm but I can already picture a frazzled mess in my head. I need to think positively and know that I wasn't given more than I am able to handle. Heavenly Father wouldn't do that to me. I am so blessed to have these three amazing children and I love them with my whole heart. I CAN do this and I will do it...even if I'm a hot mess in the process :)
These two babies couldn't be any more different. Street is high maintenance and completely adorable all at the same time. He fusses a lot and constantly wants to be held. I'm pretty sure he has some reflux. He spits up a lot of his meal and he cries out in pain quite a bit. He has a really hard time falling asleep during the day unless you have him pulled in tight to your body with his binkie in. When he is REALLY freaking out the only thing that calms him is holding him out from your body, and just bouncing him over and over. The second you stop, he freaks out again :) He has the most beautiful black eyes and when he is calm he will just stare deep into your eyes. He is so precious and pulls the cutest faces. I am so in love with him. It breaks my heart when he is acting like he is in pain. I just want to take it away from him! He wakes up every three hours like clock work for food. Luckily, he has figured out at night that he has to go straight back to bed and that we won't hold him to go to sleep. He is always the first to wake up at night and we have to wake up Livvi for him. They eat, and then go straight back to bed.
Livvi is the calmest, chillest baby I have ever seen. I'm so grateful for her and her sweet disposition. I don't know what I would do if I had two like Street :) She is so patient with Street. If they are laying next to each other and he is freaking out he will usually be smacking her in the face. She doesn't care :) She just lays there and patiently waits for the tantrum to be over. She rarely cries. When she does its just one quick little squawk every 30 seconds or so. Once in a blue moon she will be really upset and cry hard. She also has beautiful eyes. Hers are blue and she seems to stare right into your soul. She seems so wise. She will just chill on the floor or in the bassinet, wide awake, forever. And then when she is ready to go to sleep she just shuts her eyes and drifts off. Seriously, the perfect baby. I often think that she would already be sleeping through the night if we didn't have to wake her up.
Last night was quite the interesting experience. Penny took Daci to Carly's house and they had a sleepover over there. Rick and I took care of the babies at our house. At one point, Rick needed to go have a little meeting with Micah for some work stuff. I told him to wait til they were asleep. Well, they ate at 4:45pm, they both cried until 6:30pm, by this time they were both FREAKING OUT and we had tried everything. So, I decided to give them more to eat (they were both rooting also). We got them set up with bottles and I told Rick to go because they would surely fall asleep after their bottles, they had been up for a long time and they had worn themselves out from crying. Right? Well as soon as the bottles were gone they started right back up again. This time, it was ten times worse. BOTH of them. It was so out of character for Livvi. After an hr and a half our pure madness (and a few tears of my own shed) I called Rick and told him to come home. He came home and we each took a screaming baby. After another hour of crying we decided to bathe them, feed them, and hopefully put them down. Luckily after their bath and food they were exhausted. We put them down and they didn't get back up until 2:30am! Wahoo! They slept for 5.5 hours! Maybe I can put up with some fussy hours if I get a good sleep stretch....then again, maybe not :) After their 5.5 hour stretch they had a 3.5 hr one and then a 3 hr one. I'm really hoping I can get them stretching to four hours at a time by next week :) Wish me luck!!
Here are a few pics from the last week or so.
|Daci helping feed both babies|
|Street in the bouncer|
|Yia Yia with her granbabies|
|Princess Snow White Daci with her twins.|
|She loves to hold them!|
|Livvi at three weeks|
|What she looks like when she lets out her squawk :)|
|I love this pic. It looks like Daci is telling him a story and he is listening intently|
|Street at three weeks|
|This is what it usually looks like at our house. Street screaming and Livvi chilling :)|